||[Dec. 7th, 2008|11:32 am]
a detective of perspective i
First there's the gentle whir, often only imagined...|
A flight from Honolulu into Oakland, little more than six years ago. They asked us to play cards and later the younger one kissed me as we descended, chaste lips tightly closed even in the face of her own action and my pursuant passion. She wrote her phone number and email carefully in my notebook, added an artsy little doodle flourish in the center, and made me promise that we would see each other again. But despite my efforts, we never did.
Definitely seen this before. Just as stale as the first time, just as forgettable, just as beautiful and eternal. I've eaten the first half, what remains will represent the rest. Don't know if I can make enough heat on my own.
Last night I had a dream that I was a robot, a cyborg if you will, still somehow competely human, completely me. But the humans of flesh for some reason began to turn, to wish to destroy us. There was a girl...another human robot. We had enhanced abilities (of course), I sent her ahead out the back. Some time later I followed in large leaping moon moves over fences to land silently. A rustle behind me in the corner shadows, I turned and she was there waiting. I went to her, we came together and I felt invincible.
I want to make love to her again, I want to suck my life back to life through her lips. I want to know love again, to feel it irresistibly in my skin, feel it crackle when we touch and slide together.
Never to be felt again, she says. Complete romantic rubbish, of course. My very presence is a blight upon my environment, this power can be turned to good. A hole in the fabric. A focus not yet felt, a sound fabricated by fingertips, an instantaneous electrical eagerness.
A solo drive down to Los Angeles, a friend of a friend of a friend flown out from Missouri, a shoe store confrontation, a shared back seat, a single singular cinematic kiss only released through intoxication. And another goodbye forever.
...but when it does softly click into existence, it's not long before you'll know.